Faith, Love, and Yoga

Only one post in January? I was a slacker! January was filled of a lot of big choices and the tip of some big transitions to be made! I finally have taken that giant leap of faith: quit my nanny job to pursue my dream of becoming a full time yoga teacher. It feels so invigorating, energizing, exactly what I needed to do! I haven't felt this light hearted in a long time. That's how I know it's time. Time for change! This time, I am very excited, and not even overwhelmed by such a big choice. I have this unbelievable amount of faith and trust in my decision. I know in my heart that I need to do this because it's what I dream to do. Everything seems to be aligning for this decision. I have been less stressed, less anxious, and happier. My last day is March 4th, and then I'm jumping into yoga yoga and more yoga!

This whole process has been so healing on many levels. It has given me so much space. I realize that I haven't allowed that space to be, because healing can be so painful sometimes. I took Kevin Courtney's workshop this weekend at Back Bay Yoga. He said something saturday morning that resinated with me so strongly, it brought me to tears in the middle of class. He said (because his teacher said) that often times when we feel pain in a pose, it can often actually be the fear of pain that we are feeling. woah. For many reasons this hit home in the best possible way. I needed to hear that so badly. I know that I have been closed up and have had a heavy heart since june 30th when Brian died. And I've been scared of losing other friends, family. I've been an anxious mess most of the time...trying to put a smile on for people to believe. And when we said those words, something seemed to release itself. It felt like the beginning of a beautiful healing process. My intention for march is to come back to my meditation practice, and really heal this fear, anxiety and sadness. March is for me, march is for my students, march is for the beauty of yoga and the wonderful energy it brings the world.

This whole process has also reminded me how important it is to keep faith in my dreams, in myself, and in the universe. It's so easy to get caught up in the drama of so many situations, so many possibilities. And I'm sure I still will get caught up in it all from time to time. But if I can diminish that "time to time" to be more seldom, then I'm making progress :).

I have also been reminded on such a deep, beautiful, wonderful level, how important it is to LOVE. Love, and be loved. The amount of support I have already received through this decision has been so wonderful. Everyone has said congratulations, or helped me through the actual decision making, and given me so much love. It's so important to recognize that love and embrace it with everything I have, so I can give it back to the universe.

So my new mantra for 2011, is of course:

Faith, Love, and Yoga.

Cheers to 2011!

Light and Love,

Sarah